Finally i have something to blog
Been 2 months since last entry
someone said i shd blog on the Vday, etc, ect..
ya right.

Well done, the past few days and even past time together,
she can say let's break or not meant to be together. Cool isn't it
After all these while, what i have been trying. Meet her as
much as i could, even when she's working, i don mind sleeping little
and meet her in the evening or night time. Tried to help her in closing
the stall at the very least what i got was she piss off n scolding.
When this happened, of cos i felt unappreciated and rather stare at the
shopping mall or close my eyes to rest. Help also or don also got scolded.

I really felt so uncherished and unappreciated. In the relationship, i really
am trying my best. I never meant to ever make her cry or sad. I really wan us to be
together, to be happy.

So can some1 tell mi why am i being so stupid. I muz have been only a fool
all thses while right. Hey look, if i love someone, i never say break or not meant to
be together like nothing. Yet the one i had been loving say this like countless times
wat does it mean ? I really dono is it she say for the sake of saying or she really mean
it. If really mean it, kindly put it true to me seriously and i will seriously agree with
the decision.

How much do i mean to her, i really do not know. Maybe not enough for her to simply
rethink about saying break up or end it. I'm so tired. Does anyone know what is my
defination of tired? It's both physically and mentally strained. Hey u ppl think i dono wat
is sadness is it. I also have feelings ok. Are they being reflected ? I guess not cos it seems like
she doesn't feel it when i'm sad. What am i in her life for now ? I do not know the answer anymore. Lost in a world of spinning changes.

alvinsoojunmin
4/13/2006 11:46:00 PM