... i'm in some kind of a dilemma, think there's a girl liking mi and when did chatted on the phone tonight, she was like kinda hinting to me that there's a guy she like. Den she was like saying my friend got ask her is it me is it me. Then she stopped a while den back to asking mi shd she tell him she likes him... and some other quite hinting stuff. My analysis was like 70% and above of it was talking about me...I said things like juz take it one step at a time then etc.. etc... Den she ask if she were to tell the guy do i tink he will be stunned i said yes ah.

My friend was like asking her was it me and if like muz go tell him. Tiaoz...When she asked such qns le i was like saying leave it to fate, wait see how. I did mentioned if got a gal like tat to me, i wldn't know wat to do cos i'm not ready for any relationship for now. Den she said ok, take things one step at a time n wait (-_-")

Can't imagine if i were to suddenly have a gf, i guess i'm too used to being single n and having freedom. If out of the blue like 2 yrs ago attached again don't think i can commit or wat. Right now friends are more important than having a girl friend and don't think i have time for relationship. I guess for the time being it's better to be friends for whatever the cause maybe. Perhaps things might change in the future who knows.

Haha suddenly the idea of ever were to have a gf seems like a horrifying thought to me cos back last time life was like... I mean i have to give up a lot of things, spend time with her, put in commitment, having quarrels etc... Worst is being truly in love wif her and at end broke up, that's the most hurting part. Its a pain that's unbearable, whoever has ever been through it knows exactly what i'm talking about. Relationship is kinda like a phobia to me ah. Can only say i'm very happy wif the life i have right now, goin out and enjoying wif my friends guys and gals regardless of anything.

Valentine's Day is gonna be a day for me to be out with singles this year, maybe not the case for next year nobody knows. But this year i guess this is the way it will be. Advance Happy Valentine's Day to my friends who are attached as well as those who are single =]

alvinsoojunmin
2/13/2004 04:07:00 AM